In my Father’s Eyes
DISCLAIMER: This idea has been rattling around in my brain for almost a year. I wanted to write down what my dad may have experienced as he watched his life ending. It’s a rough draft – so probably not completed yet, but something I felt very passionate about. September 12, 2012 was the 20th aniversary of my dad’s death – so this is in rememberance of what an amazing father he was! ENJOY!
I went to the doctor again today. My heart is failing, my diabetes worse, my world is crashing down around me.
I’m watching my beautiful daughters, seeing their uniqueness, appreciating their differences, watching them grow – how will they turn out if I’m not here to help them become women?
My time is getting close – I can feel deaths sour breath on my neck – cold and yet comforting…a release from the pain.
My daughters are watching me. They see my pain, they know I’ll soon be gone, their worlds will change more than they can imagine.
It’s time. I’ve done what I can, a letter for each of my beautiful girls – a guide for the rest of their lives without me. Dear God – please let them be ok.
It’s been a blink of an eye for me. No more pain, no more sadness – just peace.
It’s been a lifetime for my girls. All the pain, all the tears, all the joys…I’ve seen it all – they just don’t know. I’ve been here all along – they just can’t see.
I’m proud of what my girls have become.