To be quite honest I am not a fan of the “holidays”. I feel like the commercialism of “Christmas” has completely buried the original (and I mean ORIGINAL) reason for celebration. Today we are celebrating the winter solstice, new life and new beginnings – yet all anyone thinks about are presents, money, hustle and bustle. I would like to share with you my holiday experiences this year.
Every year I dread Christmas. I’m always alone and try to separate myself from the hustle and bustle of the season. This year is no different. As I’m waiting for the bus yesterday morning I’m feeling grumpy about being alone on Christmas once again. My grumpiness is increased because of the lack of nicotine in my system. I see a lady smoking and ask her for a cigarette. We start chatting and discover that we are waiting for the same bus. We sit next to each other on the bus and chat for the next hour about all kinds of things. We exchange phone numbers and make plans to hang out. Neither of us have many female friends but both are excited about the new friendship we’ve made with each other.
While I’m at work I get a call from my boss. He tells me that our accountant just gave her notice and they need to fill her position as soon as possible. I explain that I know someone (a friend of mine) who is in desperate need of a job and would be a great fit with our organization. I send him her resume and by the end of the day the two of them have scheduled an interview for the following day. This friend of mine got me my first real job in Seattle, a job which was directly responsible for me being able to be in the position I’m in today. She’s also always been there for me when I needed her. She is one of the most giving and caring people I’ve ever known. She is a single mom and has been out of work for about 7 months. She is getting desperate and depressed about her situation. I feel the need to help her now in her time of need if I am at all able to. My boss tells me he’s thrilled about her resume and I just have a feeling that he is going to offer her a job on the spot.
On my way home from work I call an old friend of mine who I recently reconnected with. We haven’t talked in a few months and I’m immediately apologetic for not keeping in touch. By the end of our conversation I’m laughing and my spirits are high. We’ve made plans to get together after the first of the year – and he professes longstanding feelings for me. I’m SHOCKED! I’d been completely oblivious to his interest in me but there was always an interest in him on my part. I’m thrilled about the possibilities of what may come.
When I get home from work I get comfortable and partake of my medicine (ah lovely greenery – how you ease my soul). After a few minutes there is a knock on my door. My friend who is interviewing with my organization and my best friend are standing at my door with bags full of food. They know my finances are tight right now and have conspired to make sure I have food in my home for the holidays. We sit and chat for hours reminiscing on fun times in our past and making plans for New Years. Throughout the night I’m amazed at the beauty of paying it forward. In me helping someone in need, my needs have been met.
Today I’m on cloud nine. I’m looking forward to a long weekend and a fun-filled Christmas bringing meals to my homebound tenants. As the day progresses I am showered with love and gifts from friends in my life. I’m amazed at the outpouring of kindness and love which is coming my direction. I’m sitting at my desk now – thinking about how my life has changed this year. I’m so grateful for all the positive changes I’ve made in my life.
This afternoon I’m going to be bringing a bed and some other furniture to a formerly homeless new tenant of mine who has no furniture and has been sleeping on the floor since moving in. When I told her that I was going to be donating this furniture to her she cried. She is so grateful for the opportunity to get off the streets and have a warm safe place to call home.
This holiday season my heart and soul are filled with joy. I’m making a difference in people’s lives and they are in turn making a difference in mine. That to me is the TRUE spirit of Christmas. I pray that we can all pause for a minute in our busy schedules and reflect on the deeper meanings of this holiday season.
Blessings my friends.